I Do Not Care

I almost just don’t care anymore

Even though I really care a lot

Because what is the point of being here

When I get nothing but give you all that I got

I wait for confirmation

But that confirmation will never arise

I am standing on a fence

But won’t jump or even open my eyes

I almost just don’t care anymore

I numb myself every day

You show me daily why I should give up

So I slash my own feelings away

My actions show how I feel

I even let my words reenforce

But I can’t make you feel

What you obviously don’t

I almost just don’t care anymore

I practically lost all hope

So I live my life in parallel to yours

And harbor no ill will if we do cross paths or don’t

I’ve learned to control my emotions

And put them in the back

And in the back I will forget about them

Just like others in my past

I almost just don’t care anymore

And this time it is true

For I’d rather be surrounded by an abundance of love

Than to feel alone with you

“Never let emotions consume you to the point where it makes you stand still. Let go of what doesn’t propel you forward.” – Monica Renata