A dog sits in the living room
You two just finished playing fetch
I am scouring the internet trying to figure out our next trip
Our sons play on the football team
One is a nerd just like me
We’re patiently waiting for our little girl
Soon our family will be complete
A house in the countryside
Another in the city
We made great decisions in our lives and live life so freely
I can see it all as clear as day
I work hard to make it be
I stress myself tirelessly
This is the life I want my life to be
But what if the dog is in the living room
And it is just him and I
What if our kids never happen?
What happens if we never tried?
My worry will keep worrying
My thoughts would be consumed
I will stress myself in the morning, night, and even afternoons
But then it all finally comes to me on a rainy June night
Maybe I don’t exist in the future
That future that I worry about
A twist in my side
This realization seems so cold
Maybe God has other plans
Maybe my dreams are not meant to unfold
Maybe I do not exist in the future I am so worried about
It sounds cold
But also there is relief
For now I can just live life freely
And let my life just BE