You drain me
Of the lifeforce that God has given me
The essence that makes me smile
The embodiment of joy within
You drain me
You rob me of my words
And force silence upon me
Because to you what I say doesn’t matter
And what you believe is considered actualities
You rob me
Of the joyful spirit I have for years yearned for
The beautiful butterfly that finally can fly
The jubilant dove on the clouds of serenity
You rob me
My peace
My happiness
Shattered
Loyalty questioned daily
When I know what loyalty is
When loyalty is something that I have held close to my heart
For so long that it had the ability of crushing my heart
Because loyalty enabled me to stay loyal so long
To the wrong one
Trust is easy to lose
Especially when you break trust to disprove loyalty
Loyalty which is fabricated in your mind
But means everything to me
Trust is easy to lose
You drain me
You rob me
I am at a lost
I don’t know what to do
To stay whole would be ideal
But then again to stay here means I shall become a chiseled statue of my former self
Still happy
But not as happy as I was before
Yet can something that isn’t whole
Be beautiful to you?
Actions speak louder than words
And loyalty is hard to find
Insecurity can lead to trust being easily lost
And if it is lost, why try?