Memory Walls


A memory placed deep in my mind
So deep that it can’t be reached
A memory that is embedded inside
A memory of which my mouth won’t speak
To reveal it would cause so much pain
But for me it would cause release
A memory that replays over and over in my mind
A memory I hope no one seeks
Sometimes opening up and being honest
Is the hardest part….
You have so much to tell someone
But in that moment you are lost….
What are you to do when you want to speak
But fear is preventing you from doing so?
Why can’t you stop thinking about this memory
Which happened so long ago?
A memory placed deep in my mind
So deep that it can’t be reached
I want to tell the truth this time
But there is so much fear inside of me
What’s the point of saying something
Or even bringing it up? 
For it is a memory in my head
That I have lived enough
But slowly it is taking over
And I adjust my life accordingly
For fear of revealing this memory
Makes me unable to see
See the true wonders in life
See the true world around me
But this memory will stay deep in my mind
While it dictates my life to me

“Don’t let one situation dictate how your entire life will be……” -Monica Renata